Chew On A Lima Bean Some Time ?!

Hey World,

Welcome to 2016. My name is Pebble$ but today I want to awaken and embrace my inner Camilla Cream.

I want to make it a habit to listen to kids stories throughout 2016, I need to nurture my inner child and creativity.

I want to thank Camilla Cream for teaching me that in my 2016, I should continue not to care whether people like what I like, THAT AIN'T NONE OF MY BUSINESS ! If you're looking to help build me you are more than welcome to come into my space as for all that other pettiness take a ticket, park your mouth and take several seats. You have an opinion, yes it is very much respected but don't dump truck negativity into my pool of kindness.

Through life we compromise ourselves at one interval or another whether by going forward with that action or for a second thinking it through in our minds. Unlike Camilla Cream, we are lucky enough not to be punished by the presence of stripes BUT the absence of those stripes have kept us in unhappiness trying to please others when our first happy customer of any opinion should be ourselves. Take the step outside of your sadness and make yourself happy by going through with a decision that your heart and mind follow, NOT anybody else's but YOURS. 

Camilla Cream also shows us what we do to ourselves every time we decide to suppress the desire for what we really want and place the wants of others in higher priority - through the scene in class when they were saying the Pledge of Allegiance. Do you notice that every time somebody said what they wanted to see it appeared on Camilla's skin NOT their own skin ? She wanted to please others with her outfit so much that when it came to really pleasing them through the polka-dots, checkerboard and breaking out in stars that appeared on her skin she realized how humiliating it was and, how no joy can be derived from such requests.

Looking at this instance, it's funny how what others do causes you the problems and even though you're trying to satisfy them you have to deal with the problem. STOP! being somebody's experimental model with negativity being spoken into your cloud with words that can break you to a point where you're not sure if repair is even possible.

You must realize that people cannot simply request of you to be any other way than being yourself and expect you to still be the same person, it's impossible! You also cannot expect to please others and think that you will be happy with such decisions. Every pattern that Camilla broke out in represents every form of silenced rebellion your true self makes when you decide that your life is meant to be lived for somebody else or some other people. When you silence these parts of your true self, you constantly kill off a little bit of yourself and a part of you goes into hibernation. Be careful :

When you get to that point in life where you constantly find yourself living to please others, start to worry and hope that you get the opportunity to ask for those Lima beans AND to be asked the question of: "Is there anything I can get you, sweetheart?"

Whether you're a kid or a teenager or an adult, Camilla Cream takes one for the team so you don't have to make such mistakes. 

For teenagers the lima beans of your life might be your hair, your style, your values, your likes, your dislikes - which may be affected by your peers who don't agree with your choices but, whoever made them the decision-makers of your life needs to be put in check. Most likely the person who gave them that authority is you, it doesn't matter if you've already given them that position, take it back ! Take back the controls from their hands and hold onto those things in your youth while you can - there's a possibility you will see changes in your self-esteem (positive of course) once you do what brings you joy and makes you feel more like yourself. 

For the adults out there your lima beans face you more every single day. You have values, morals, work ethics, drive, visions, ways of life and many more things which you cannot allow another individual to suppress. You have come too far in this life from your days as a kid and your high school days as a teenager, for you to allow another simple being dictate the script on how you run YOUR business. Don't compromise who you are to gain people's favor because you will lose those people once you get tired of the compromise - 

you build on compromise, you'll be broken and destroyed on compromise !

In any situation in life you need to have some good people, the good counsel that surrounds you - you should only have a few in this circle who will bring you back to yourself when you lose your main focus and tell you the truth. Don't limit yourself from reaching a greater height just because your wants and desires don't fit in with the lower standards of the world.

To end this post today here's a little something I want you to remember:

" Just for your information there is no psychologist, therapist, yoga instructor, doctor, lawyer, teacher etc. etc. in this life that can solve the problems for which you already have the solutions for. None of those folks can fix what you need to fix for yourself, none of them and I mean none of them have lived life as YOU so therefore cannot identify what sits at the core of your compass for living. Whatever is the equivalent of lima beans in your life will more times than ever be the solution to your problem - identify, value and embrace your lima bean of life ! "

Everybody needs to chew on some Lima Beans some time and swallow that bitter truth. A word of encouragement never hurt nobody !

This post was inspired by "A Bad Case Of Stripes" By David Shannon .

I want to publish a book, it will be a collective  of my work from the start of my journey at 8 years old til Summer 2015. Hold me to it ! 

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Risk It & Be Renewed

I think today is a good day for us to talk about RISKS. 

I have learned the vital approach of independence in taking risks. I take a simple example which I have learned from, which is Noah. Noah took risks at intervals through his journey, Noah did things that people wouldn't do, he didn't listen to the critics when they 

were telling him not to build the boat. He didn't listen to people who were wondering how he would be on an ark with all those animals, animals probably considered to be wild and dangerous. There could have been some scorpions, some pythons, cobras, 

some elephants, lions it must have been a whole lot of different animals that he had on that ark; and he had to take those risks because he had been given an instruction. 

Sometimes in life it may not necessarily be an instruction but maybe a dream, vision or a plan you have in life for a day or for a week or session. Don't let the critics or people who don't believe in that dream, or don't know about that dream affect the way that YOU 

perceive it, the way that YOU want to plan those things out. Many a time, there are people who don't want to believe in our 

dreams because it's beyond the scope of what they could dream for themselves so to them IT IS a threat. It may even be people who don't understand our drive and why we strive for things.. but you know WHAT?! it's not really your job to always have to educate them. Sometimes that takes a lot of energy, energy you should not have to waste, so you just have to give it what you got and 

all that you can give is what you have. I think taking a risk is being able to bounce back from so many challenges and times when people said things were impossible to stand back and just be able to say "You know what there's no harm in trying", if you 

don't try then you'll probably never know that you can be amazing at that thing or change the perception about it.

I want to encourage you all today, don't let anybody use where you used to be to determine where you're going or where you 
can be. Don't let people define your current situation by things you've been through or things that you have done that were not 
so sensible or whatever. Take that risk today, sometimes it is best for you to break out of a norm, sometimes an athlete finds himself 
in a difficult position where he feels 'I run this race this way but it's not going the way I intended'. You just have to take the risk to 
run the race differently, you have to think of all the techniques you've learned and select a different one & that might be the 
one that allows you to see that greater thing at the end - where you're going in essence.

For most of us we're holding back too much and feel like, let me just have my voice in my little community.. nope I won't stress myself and go into a bigger community because they might not accept me, they might not listen, they won't comfort me like 
my little community. That's so wrong, that's us human beings not wanting to take the risk. I as Pebble$ have to challenge 
myself to do this, if I'm not already becoming confident in doing things differently. Something that confirmed that for me 
was listening to Jade of LipsticknCurls. She was talking about how she always doesn't do things the way that people do it, 
she doesn't do all these tags and other videos you might see others do. 

Also listening to some young folks recently, with them discussing about failure I was really touched because I've had some failures 
in my life and I would not be here today if I didn't decide to bounce back from them. I've had times when I failed myself, at the 
age of 6 when I told myself I couldn't get a college degree but I'm on my way to achieving some of the greatest qualifications in 
my life. Then to think that I have the audacity to dream in the midst of all I've been through is amazing. Those times have been
filled with some of the most daunting risks that I have had to take but guess who didn't allow anybody's thoughts stop those 
steps from being taken, ME.

Always let the ME which is YOU, as an individual take the boldest steps.

Be confident to take those risks. Failure might have bitten your behind once, but don't let it hit you like it released venom and paralyzed you. Failure might have succeeded in knocking you down but it will not succeed in knocking you out, dust yourself off! 
Don't let the world measure you by how many times you got knocked down but rather by the times you stood up and said 'I will 
try again!' You may not necessarily try that thing again but something that's going to help you to move forward in trying again.

This Is What I Need You To Do. 

1. Be willing to take some risks

2. Break out of the norm

3. Don't do things on common ground

4. If it's suffocating you or stopping you from being where you're supposed to be, risk it and leave that thing!

I want to publish a book, it will be a collective of my work from the start of my journey at 8 years old til Summer 2015. Hold me to it !

      Copyright © 2016 PebblesWroteIt

#2015InReview

As I sit down to reflect on the year and my journey so far, I come to a point of great appreciation for the opportunities given. This feels like my best blogging year so far, this year I felt like I gave more than the Poet and Writer within.  I used my experiences and I had an inner confidence. Thank you world for allowing me to use this platform as a stage to showcase to you the lady I am becoming and the woman I aspire to be !  

-  Pebble$ 

1. New Beginnings

2. Devil Take A Seat, Let Me Lecture

3. The Changes

4. Fixed On You

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My top 4 posts of 2015 are a mixture of poetry and motivating posts that gave me a chance to give what I have in the hope of encouraging and speaking to my world (that is YOU) who read my posts through one means or another. 2015 took me from "I know what I'm doing, I got this" to "somebody help a sista out" and right back !

Little did I know that I was going to learn so much about myself in a way I wasn't even ready for. 'New Beginnings' you have to put yourself in check every time you get the chance and that doesn't even have to be due to any wrongs against self, you just have to keep it 100 with yourself and where you are going. There is one piece from this post that reflected itself in the first quarter of the year, "You just need to wake up and be a servant of all, let them know 'you wanna take a dump on my feelings and kindness' GO AHEAD !!". This happened on several occasions but I decided I wouldn't stop in my goodwill, your choices are none of my business.

'Devil Take A Seat, Let Me Lecture' who doesn't know how it feels to have a nose you can't breathe through and a head that hurts, then combine this with a desire to succeed where health contradicts strength. This was a post of realizing the reality of giving up on self at the last moments when all the points were just about to click together. This is my only regret of 2015 and I promise you I won't be selling myself short in life ever again.

Every stage of life requires that you learn something new and with that comes development that will always equip you for something or someone. 'The Changes' takes you through a process of building self so that you can help to build the world around you, through this you can move onto the image. The image of the man/woman that will come from the growth of your trips, your stumbles, your boo boos, tears, laughter, the rises and falls. 

Now the side of poet, 'Fixed On You' first of all I didn't even know what to call this post then I decided to paste it into a draft that I had already created .. so a visual and a caption later and a post was born, ready to be shared with the world. This is the last but not least of my TOP 4 Blog posts of 2015 !

These are my top 4, are there any of others that should have made the list? I look forward to bringing another year of amazing 
posts to you and more discovery ! 

Happy Holidays Ahead, Enjoy Yourselves And See You In 2016 !!!

Pebble$ x

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Inked

I know this post is going up a little late but I was wondering if sharing this piece matched with the Hello December above .. well I have

decided to put them up together. Just telling stories from a story-filled mind, my flow will not always make sense but I do hope you get

the message within it. 

The Story Begins:

I don't know the real struggle of that brotha

I'm not ready for a strip and search of my emotions

Conceited as I am I don't look to conceal

I won't really ever know how it feels to have your pure canvas painted black

To know the feelings of yesterday shut down in a shotgun

To have the feels of yesterday dead and gone

I will always be gone to the connection of touching and living it

Idle, wild minds create minds for plains of fury
We set our clocks back by a half hour
Just to blame them for closing early on the happy hour
I will continually take trips and turns playing hop scotch
Instead of fully understanding the embodiment of who you are
I don't know why you live here
But you must be strong to stay there
Stay over there where the breeze is clean

Freedom is not too far away gone

From the lungs of those constrained by a stain

Your confidence is showing

A journey upheld even through strong winds

I must commend you

But in order to commend I have to comprehend you

That isn't easy and I'm learning

Learning to sip on a juice not always suited to the taste of buds

I am not accustomed to the treasures you hold
I can't find you in my book
You didn't allow me to write your story
I don't know the real struggle of that brotha
I'm not ready to take the pain of being a son after his mother's heart
I will never know what that takes
Summon what is not there to hold together pieces almost shattering
Why is doing anything for a mother so.. so important
Where do tears go when your insides are hurting

Why are your lungs bruised and your heart still beating

I hear it kills you to see it every day

How this situation is slowing dying

Where is your resurrection when we thought life wiped you out

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Fixed On You ..

Who will you blame for my impertinence to conform

Who will you hold for my ignant mind as you call it

And who taught you to judge my book without its cover

Who will you question for my ingratitude

I am here solely confined
And you show no reason to care
You find your solace in that stupid newspaper you read every morning
Your soul is absent, I can hear your sorrow bellowing
Your tears fight with your eyes and your scorn grazes your skin
Who will you use to educate yourself
I refuse to let my mistakes be your teacher
I don't know you but you somehow know me??
Is that so

Your wind is stale and your gusts are not appeasing

Why do you read parables in my simple words

Why is my attitude your riddle

Don't try to figure it out

Your taxes still don't add up

You want to calculate me

And you have no answers for yourself

Why are you a nuisance staying around my grounds

Lower you guard ..

I mean your gun

I am not your threat and neither is my mind
For your information I do speak English
My written is that most bitten
My words nourish the soul
My dreams should be your food for thought
Step back my actions are not my advance
Your lack of knowledge annoys me
Sit down and translate
Keep you eyes open and stay awake

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" Devil Take A Seat , Let Me Lecture You"

We feel pressurized by so many things in this life whether it's family, friends or ourselves. In January I.was.hard.on.myself because I wanted to ace my classes, I wanted to give my best; though I was so hard on myself mentally my body actually read that. These few months have been quite a journey and I have to thank God for getting me through and over my current and past situations. I took a journey I didn't think was possible, I had to finally tell myself  "No matter what this takes I gotta do it and I did it !"

I have been on a journey which will be instrumental to my life 
Even in years to come 

I've come to the end of it and

Need to find out how to achieve what I desire most right now.

Times will take you from ill health and back to homeostatic control

Largest allergy fight of your life left you with that adaptive immunity 

You'll never have the chance to attack me like that again

Does it help that people doubt me getting there 

Who told you I needed their two cents to fuel me into sadness

And at which point

Did I inform you of my concern with distractions

Many things will take you from a high to 'where did I lose full control' 

I had this all scheduled out, post-it noted

I even timed them

What happened and

At which point did I seem disorganized

Where did the urgency to achieve leave and take sidelines

In which way can I bring myself back because 

Those who love me will soon doubt that I tried at all 

I'll hurt myself thinking about this point for the rest of my life 

God you know my heart please help me out 

You made me, you placed me here 

It's your favor and grace that got me this place 

I admit my submission to the commissions of admissions 

From tasks that take me one step further 

I don't give my best as I wish

But it's still good enough 

How can I thank you enough

I was frustrated,

I didn't have a way out 

But you held my hand,

You protected my heart 

When I nearly broke it, you saved me 

I lost self so you saved me from myself 

Will I ever get to the next stop
I don't want those behind to leave me behind

I .. I .. I ENCOURAGED them to run 

Situations can't stay this way
This devil needs to take a seat and hear me out 
He needs to know I'm not his puppet to some freak show
You don't mess with me then think I won't get up 

My future is not determined by the outline 
Of my current situation 
My drive was tears but I wiped my eyes and 
Passion seeped out,

My pressed package burns
Good oil 
Give me time I will grow,

Five years does and doesn't seem too long 
You'll be hearing from my judge by the time I'm done
I'll school you in the tests of life
Let me lecture you on the ability to live within means
But provide beyond capacity
No temporary principles taught here 
Long term lessons given in fortitude 
To show how graciously it was understood that we 
Should never and will never stop here 

And by the way the judgement is already ruled in my favor, It's a win-win for me ! 

- Pebble$


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Cloudy .

Do actions become apparent .. before or after the deed is done ? - Pebble$



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