The Series : I AM.. Consequential

These are words you don't hear every day. They are not to be used in just any way. Think about that statement; only say it if you believe it, if you will live it. Let these words uplift you when you forget whose you are. Remind yourself of the force and power behind you.

Model  :  noellenance

CONSEQUENTIAL

Definition: I am the result and the effect. I am major. I am significant. I bear some weight. I am the weight. I will change your life consciously and unconsciously; that is a FACT. It also means I am present in every moment because I am meant to be.

Spending each day imagining how to kill me is a wasted effort. You can try, but nothing will silence me. I can't stay silent. I got a little trouble with staying silent. Being creative is one reason why you will never be able to kill me. While I sleep, my words are awake wrapping themselves around your ears and your curls, waves and the type 1s growing from your head.

I'm asking for racial reconciliation. I can't be the only one watching my nightmares with eyes wide open while you wait for me to pass your white picket fence for the noise to die out. You will get this noise. You will hear this noise. I am receptive and ready, so it's your turn to be the stimuli.

The words above are the start of this series.

It all started one Sunday in 2020 when panic was high. People thought they had to count the days until it was their time to die. People lost their sense of worth, with jobs gone, security lost, not knowing if working from home would turn to no longer working.

I listened to a Sunday sermon and created something to make us all feel worthy through words. All of this was at a time when we found out about Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd, alongside others who were all murdered. The strings of America's heart had been stretched over time until they finally snapped. There were shouts for justice, which shaped some of my captions in the earlier posts of the series. There was no justice served following Breonna Taylor's death and the coming trial of George Floyd's killers.

I had to give worth and value back to life - numerous pandemics were going on simultaneously (racial, political, health, and the freedom of people's choices).

I plan to make new additions to the series as meaningful moments and messages are forced out of this poet's mind and fingers to type or write. Let me give you snippets from that Sunday message to make this all make further sense.

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SUNDAY SERMON

Wisdom is the principal thing.

Applying wisdom as a filter or lens through which we view things and situations. A lens or filter through which we approach life and our lives can lead to more effective and efficient outcomes.

"Open the ears of your spirit and drink from the rivers of wisdom."

Translation: Listen. Learn. Ask questions. Enquire about things. Express your willingness to learn. Admit that you don't know much about a whole lot of things.

Translation #2: It is a collective of rivers that don't run dry. Continually seek, and you will find the river that meets your needs each season. Respect your continual evolution by continuing to learn.

Engage in many studies. Read the books of conquerors that intrigue you. Make your books your companion. Stretch your mind.

Be mentored by great minds - not only in proximity. It can be your creative friends, skilled friends, knowledgeable neighbors, colleagues with a side hustle, or thriving business/project. It can be big-name celebrities, leaders, or influencers in your field of interest. Through this mentoring, you will find - that you are encouraged, informed, or equipped to build wealth in your habits, personal spaces, and professional spaces that matter to you.

All of these things contribute in one way or another to your consequential life. A life that has value on any given day.

Tell yourself always: 

"My life is consequential."

"There is something awesome to me. I am not here by accident or a mistake."

"My life is mine to judge first, by the way I keep on moving."

AND..

"My future and destiny are consequential."

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10 Tiny Desks To Listen To | Pebble$

 

I realized I had to share my favorite Tiny Desk performances with my readers when I heard Nubya Garcia's. I've had her on my TBL (to be listened to) list for a while, so I decided it was time to listen to her work while I completed a task. Let me tell you something. I was NOT disappointed.

Here's a list of performances that I think you will enjoy too.

1. Tank And The Bangas

2. Kiefer

3. Nubya Garcia

4. The Roots ft. Bilal

5. Mumu Fresh

6. Tyler, The Creator

7. Erykah Badu

8. Moonchild

9. Thundercat

10. Robert Glasper Experiment

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30 Ways To HEAL

 

One I don't

I resist

Two I fight with myself until

I accept that I am losing

Three I lost the battle this season

Four maybe I'll try again

I'll try something new tomorrow

Five maybe I'm fighting the wrong battle

Six maybe I'm fighting the right battle

But I can't do it alone

Seven I'll find a way

I'll try talking to somebody

Eight I know you lying

You expect me to have all the words?!

Nine, like right now

Today?!

Ten I find the words

But the emotions attached to each one

Are overwhelming

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Eleven process everything

Twelve feel all the feelings

Thirteen sit with your rage

Give it time to go from 100 to 20

Fourteen when it gets to 20

Countdown and think honestly

Fifteen ask about the 'what'

More than the 'why'

Sixteen 'why' will trigger the rage

But it won't provide answers

Seventeen 'what' identifies more time points

Than a stopwatch

Eighteen run the lap

Jog the lap

Walk the lap

Whatever you do, endure

Keep moving

Nineteen you've been a sponge

You're at full saturation

Twenty the healing comes with some squeezing

Let me know when you're ready

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Twenty-one when the comfort leaves

Find ways to understand your discomfort

Twenty-two when you're hurting

Allow yourself to feel

Twenty-three face yourself fully

With assistance or a safe place

Before you break

Twenty-four the secret is in the sitting

And processing

Twenty-five invite stillness in

Twenty-six decide that healing is what you want

Twenty-seven you have to be open to the possibility that

This journey won't look the way you want it to

Twenty-eight wear the right shoes

You might cut bare feet

Overwork a heart

And open new wounds on this mountain

Twenty-nine triggers make us uneasy

So, there must be a path to overcoming

Thirty healing doesn't occur in one day

But one day

It will occur to you

That you've come a long way

Healing is continual

A set of slopes

That teach you how to ride steady

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Each Day

 

What is for you will not pass you by.

Give good moments a chance. There are seasons of our lives where we will not qualify, but the invitation to coffee, dinner, an event, or a day out - will be mailed to you. Your name is on that invitation, nobody else's.

Whether through a high or a low, somebody will say these words to you: 'You're the kind of person I would take a chance on'  (there will be variations in its delivery, but you'll know).

Each day is an opportunity to live. Feed yourself bookworms. Start with one page, non-bookworm.

In the other domains of life, give yourself the grace to relearn what you need. Identify what is important to you. Reclaim your time for each one. Protect the moments their value increases with time.

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2023 Reads : Pebble$

 

1.   The Bone Sparrow  :  Zana Fraillon

2.   Holes In The Sky  :  Patricia Polacco

3.   The Untethered Soul  :  Michael A. Singer

4.   Knots On A Counting Rope  :  Bill Martin Jr. & John Archambault (read by Bonnie Bartlett & William Daniels)

5.   Great Granny  :  Ann Bryant & Barbara Szepesi Szucs

6.   Achieving A Dream  :  Jill Atkins & Alessia Trunfio

7.   The Yssis Papers - The Keys To The Colors  :  Dr Frances Cress Welsing

8.   The Very Hungry Caterpillar  :  Eric Carle (read by Mo Gilligan)

9.   Not Now Bernard  :  David McKee (read by Mo Gilligan)

10.   King, S.M. (2011)  'Jim Wallis: Rediscovering Values.' The Pneuma Review. p. 1-4

11.   Benny's Hat  :  Juliet Clare Bell

12.   We March  :  Shane W. Evans (read by Marley Dias)

13.   Girl - Essays On Black Womanhood  :   Kenya Hunt

14.   Somebody Loves You, Mr Hatch  :  Eileen Spinelli (read by Hector Elizondo)

15.   Nine Perfect Strangers  :   Liane Moriarty

16.   Punching The Air  :  Ibi Zoboi & Yusef Salaam

17.   Superheroes Are Everywhere  :  Kamala Harris

18.   An Abolitionist's Handbook - 12 Steps To Changing Yourself And The World  :   Patrisse Cullors // still reading..

19.   Black Girl Magic Sprinkles  :  Chaunetta Anderson

20.   Opal Lee And What It Means To Be Free - The True Story Of The Grandmother Of Juneteenth  :  Alice Faye Duncan

21.   Wintering - The Power of Rest and Retreat In Difficult Times  :  Katherine May

22.   Antiracist Baby  :  Ibram X. Kendi (read by Kendrick Sampson)

23.   Girls Can Do Anything  :  Kenneth Vaughan

24.  Aliens and Alienists  :  Roland Littlewood & Maurice Lipsedge  [3rd Edition] // still reading..

25.  Harry The Dirty Dog  :  Gene Zion (read by Betty White)

26.  Rich Dad Poor Dad  :  Robert T Kiyosaki

27.  The Day You Begin  :  Jacqueline Woodson (read by Jacqueline Woodson)

28.  Guji Guji  :  Chih-Yuan Chen (read by Robert Guillaume)

29.  Respecting Persons In Theory and Practice  :  Jan Narveson // still reading..

30.  Let's Talk About Race  :  Julius Lester (read by Common)

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Dear Pebble$ : 006

 

September 5, 2023

Dear Pebble$,

30 days gives you enough time to dig a hole so deep you sink as the earth moves into heaps on either side. It is water, deep enough to swim from the tears you cried. Silence. Self-annihilation. Stupid talk rolled off a beautiful tongue without pauses. Flashbacks to a time when your face was an invitation to bullying. A time when the light in your eyes was offensive. 

30 days is enough time to bury nothing in that hole, to place the earth back where you found it. To rise higher as the soil fits into the spaces beneath your feet. It is enough time to cry at the thought of all the good that happened while you were distracted by the stupid talk that rolled off a beautiful tongue without pauses. Probably, enough time to read the power of words in a book and exchange silence for the sound of your voice. Enough time to be your hype woman as self-annihilating letters to self, move from the outbox to trash. I'll call you back to the present, the here and now of views through windows that remind you - there is no place you would rather be.

Girl, you have so much ahead of you. These distractions ended at the hour that Day 30 said Hey. Pour back into yourself. It's time to rise up again to pour further, quicker, and deeper than ever before. There are more lives this time. When you walk out into the light on Day 30, don't let a number, response, assumption, failure or thought stop you from pouring. 

Your desired reality is already your present. Claim it! Work it! Live it!

One more reason for pouring back into yourself. Preparation. Where you're going and where you will be required - the scared don't go there. Doubt is an old promise on a record we accidentally broke during the 30 days. It's time to pack some new things and choose some replacements.

It's time to walk across that leveled earth and claim yourself as whole where holes have been. Pour water into the soil, let your seeds find their way to the surface, break through and create strength to hold some fruit.

"Walk across that leveled earth."

Letter 005

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Bookworm Reflections - 1 | Pebble$

 

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This is my first quarter in books, and reflecting on my days thus far.

The Books I Have Read:

 - The Bone Sparrow by Zana Fraillon

 - Holes In The Sky by Patricia Polacco

 - The Untethered Soul by Michael A. Singer

 - Knots On A Counting Rope by Bill Martin Jr. & John Archambault

 - Great Granny by Ann Bryant & Barbara Szepesi Szucs

 - Achieving A Dream by Jill Atkins & Alessia Trunfio

 - The Yssis Papers: The Keys To The Colors by Dr. Frances Cress Welsing

 - The Very Hungry Caterpillar by Eric Carle

 - Not Now, Bernard by David McKee

 - Benny's Hat by Juliet Clare Bell

Grief affects everybody differently. Sometimes your comfort with mortality simplifies death to a part of the life cycle that we expect. This knowledge makes you seem insensitive or avoidant to those who openly cry, retract, and require comfort.

Losses are as assured as gains through this journey. How prepared you are for either of them makes the difference in your experience through them and your reaction to them. In my case, numbness became inevitable. In the process, I had to detach myself from conversations and environments that would make me crumble instead of building the strength I needed to stand and walk.

I needed to build the strength in my legs to stand and walk because the unknowns ahead of me didn't have time or space for excuses. The falls which occurred gave me space to find my pieces, and the gradual rise reminded me of who I am. Beneath the layers is an artist, writer & poet who thrives on learning so she can share & reach others. And a bookworm who seeks entertainment and education.

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" This journey is bigger than me, so 'No' becomes a boundary my mind and body will thank me for."

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My first quarter in books is grief & time to reflect (Holes In The Sky; Benny's Hat), feeding my inner child (Knots On A Counting Rope; Great Granny; Achieving A Dream; The Very Hungry Caterpillar; Not Now, Bernard), the deep thinker's lounge (The Untethered Soul; The Yssis Papers), and education (The Bone Sparrow; The Yssis Papers).

This first quarter is each day I intentionally remember. The calls I was surprised to receive & messages that made me smile. It was moments that made me rethink my self-worth, people that reminded me of how important it is to show up for your people, and forcing myself to take breaks so I can slow down for a little bit.

I hope you walk into tomorrow knowing whether the day is grey or bright. You can, and you will get through it. Keep going. No matter how small the steps are, decide that you'll make progress.

I am walking forward with the following reminders from Dear Pebble$: 005:

 1. Other people fighting in your corner for your cause is a reminder to do this for others too.

 2. Be open to opportunities, moments, and conversations. Moments and conversations with people. Interactions with places.

 3. Be open to gaining and letting go of things.

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