One I don't
I resist
Two I fight with myself until
I accept that I am losing
Three I lost the battle this season
Four maybe I'll try again
I'll try something new tomorrow
Five maybe I'm fighting the wrong battle
Six maybe I'm fighting the right battle
But I can't do it alone
Seven I'll find a way
I'll try talking to somebody
Eight I know you lying
You expect me to have all the words?!
Nine, like right now
Today?!
Ten I find the words
But the emotions attached to each one
Are overwhelming
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Eleven process everything
Twelve feel all the feelings
Thirteen sit with your rage
Give it time to go from 100 to 20
Fourteen when it gets to 20
Countdown and think honestly
Fifteen ask about the 'what'
More than the 'why'
Sixteen 'why' will trigger the rage
But it won't provide answers
Seventeen 'what' identifies more time points
Than a stopwatch
Eighteen run the lap
Jog the lap
Walk the lap
Whatever you do, endure
Keep moving
Nineteen you've been a sponge
You're at full saturation
Twenty the healing comes with some squeezing
Let me know when you're ready
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Twenty-one when the comfort leaves
Find ways to understand your discomfort
Twenty-two when you're hurting
Allow yourself to feel
Twenty-three face yourself fully
With assistance or a safe place
Before you break
Twenty-four the secret is in the sitting
And processing
Twenty-five invite stillness in
Twenty-six decide that healing is what you want
Twenty-seven you have to be open to the possibility that
This journey won't look the way you want it to
Twenty-eight wear the right shoes
You might cut bare feet
Overwork a heart
And open new wounds on this mountain
Twenty-nine triggers make us uneasy
So, there must be a path to overcoming
Thirty healing doesn't occur in one day
But one day
It will occur to you
That you've come a long way
Healing is continual
A set of slopes
That teach you how to ride steady
