Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Fixed On You ..

Who will you blame for my impertinence to conform
Who will you hold for my ignant mind as you call it
And who taught you to judge my book without its cover
Who will you question for my ingratitude

I am here solely confined
And you show no reason to care
You find your solace in that stupid newspaper you read every morning
Your soul is absent, I can hear your sorrow bellowing
Your tears fight with your eyes and your scorn grazes your skin
Who will you use to educate yourself
I refuse to let my mistakes be your teacher
I don't know you but you somehow know me??
Is that so

Your wind is stale and your gusts are not appeasing
Why do you read parables in my simple words
Why is my attitude your riddle
Don't try to figure it out
Your taxes still don't add up
You want to calculate me
And you have no answers for yourself
Why are you a nuisance staying around my grounds
Lower you guard ..
I mean your gun

I am not your threat and neither is my mind
For your information I do speak English
My written is that most bitten
My words nourish the soul
My dreams should be your food for thought
Step back my actions are not my advance
Your lack of knowledge annoys me
Sit down and translate
Keep you eyes open and stay awake

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Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Tuesday, September 15, 2015

" Devil Take A Seat , Let Me Lecture You"

We feel pressurized by so many things in this life whether it's family, friends or ourselves. In January I.was.hard.on.myself because I wanted to ace my classes, I wanted to give my best; though I was so hard on myself mentally my body actually read that. These few months have been quite a journey and I have to thank God for getting me through and over my current and past situations. I took a journey I didn't think was possible, I had to finally tell myself "No matter what this takes I gotta do it and I did it !"

I have been on a journey which will still be instrumental to my life 
Even in years to come 
I've come to the end of it and need to find out how to achieve what I desire most right now.
Times will take you from ill health and back to homeostatic control
Largest allergy fight of your life left you with that adaptive immunity 
You'll never have the chance to attack me like that again
Does it help that people doubt me getting there 
Who told you I needed their two cents to fuel me into sadness
And at which point did I inform you of my concern with distractions

Many things will take you from a high to 'where did I lose full control' 
I just had this all scheduled out, post-it noted, I even timed them
What happened and at which point did I seem disorganized
Where did the urgency to achieve leave and take sidelines
In which way can I bring myself back because 
Those who love me will soon doubt that I tried at all 
I'll hurt myself thinking about this point for the rest of my life 
God you know my heart please help me out 
You made me, you placed me here 
It's your favor and grace that got me this place 
I admit my submission to the commissions of admissions 
From tasks that take me one step further 
I don't give my best as I wish but it's still good enough 
How can I thank you enough

I was frustrated, I didn't have a way out 
But you held my hand, you protected my heart 
When I nearly broke it, you saved me 
I lost self so you saved me from myself 
Will I ever get to the next stop
I don't want those behind to leave me behind
I .. I .. I ENCOURAGED them to run 
Situations can't stay this way
This devil needs to take a seat and hear me out 
He needs to know I'm not his puppet to some freak show
You don't mess with me then think I won't get up 

My future is not determined by the outline 
Of my current situation 
My drive was tears but I wiped my eyes and 
Passion seeped out, my pressed package burns
Good oil 
Give me time I will grow, five years does and doesn't seem too long 
You'll be hearing from my judge by the time I'm done
I'll school you in the tests of life
Let me lecture you on the ability to live within means
But provide beyond capacity
No temporary principles taught here 
Long term lessons given in fortitude 
To show how graciously it was understood that we 
Should never and will never stop here 

And by the way the judgement is already ruled in my favor, It's a win-win for me ! 

- Pebble$

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Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Cloudy .

Do actions become apparent .. before or after the deed is done ? - Pebble$

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Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Ms Allen .. I Got You x

This post goes out to my high school mom, she advised and encouraged me on how to be a woman when all I knew best to do was 
be a girl. She has been a great mentor in my life, supported me, encouraged me and she has brought so much laughter.

She is not feeling too good and I want you to keep her in your prayers. This woman is so dear to my heart she has taken me like 
a daughter under her beautiful wings of experience and maturity. I feel even more driven at times when I remember 
people such as her and it drives me to keep on keeping on. 

Lord keep this woman who is so dear to me
Give her strength and guide her through 
Bring her joy, bring her healing 
When she doesn't feel like it, let her know she is capable 
Keep her close to your heart and never let her out of your sight 
Make her burdens light and her journey strong
Allow her to leave a legacy 
Now is not the time for her yet but 
Give her the chance to give what she has left
And come back to you empty

*empty = when you have fulfilled your purpose and you are not going to your grave with unfulfilled dreams.

For all of you who see this, please reach out to a friend, mother, father, cousin, colleagues etc. etc. who you have not been in touch 
with recently. You don't know how much it may mean to that person, even if your last conversation ended with an argument 
or a "I will never speak to you again as long as I live".

Do it! If someone has been on your mind there is a reason for that, even if you call and they seem fine .. It wasn't a waste of time !! 

I love y'all and I love you Ms Allen, you mean so much to me.

Pebble$ x x 

Tuesday, July 28, 2015


Motivate yourselves .. Be motivated !

- Pebble$ x 

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Tuesday, July 14, 2015

The Changes ..

Life is an interesting ride, a journey, a set of stairs taken to your final destination BUT no where in the contract of life did it say things would be easy or the ride smooth, rather it stated that we find ourselves, learn, enrich our existence and in finding ourselves discover each other. If you need to find yourself that means you must be ready to educate yourself on value, principles, positivity and building. If you do not grasp the fundamentals of building yourself you will never be able to help another to build and consequently will be left hindered in your ability to help in building the world around you. 

I find fulfilment in knowing that I have someone to talk to, people to talk to and laugh with. There is no space for a void when you occupy your time and worth with building, within building sometimes your hands won't be at work it will be your mind learning and being educated! Progression will follow when you find that you are constantly seeking to improve the vessel known as YOU, mastering that means you'll have no trouble with sharing what you have gained with others. You go through your own things in life to be a mentor to those who will go through something similar in life. 

Taking in the experience of the journey is so important, even more than getting to the finish line. When you focus on the image of the complete you (the you, you want to see, the man/woman you wish you were, the place you wish you were at in life, wishing you had achieved that dream or goal by now etc. etc.) you forget to enjoy the trips, the stumbles, the boos boos, the tears, the laughter, the rises and the falls. Missing out these "minor" events are very dangerous in your walk as a human, as an individual in this thing we call the 'human race'. Blotting your mind out to the failures/negatives leaves huge gaps in your history which means that for those periods of time you have nothing to prove your existence so you were just in gaseous exchange & excretion mode and not existing. 

I won't come at you with all this without admitting that I take time to reflect sometimes and realize I've spent too much of my life blotting out 'minor details' and horrible experiences. My saving grace at intervals is being reminded that I was a pretty cool kid despite my unhappiness. Yes, I have been bullied for most of my life and hated on, I still get hated on but we as individuals can't be stuck at that bus stop you have to keep it moving define your destination and let it be anywhere that does not enable you to somehow come back here. Move on! 

As life progresses, you may bring yourself to the confidence of moving on and you'll make a lifestyle out of building and contributing to the growth of YOU; and you will count all experiences good or bad in your journey to those goals and dreams. Good! Now you have found yourself but why are you experiencing the same problems, or so you think but you are not. Over the course of this life you experience new levels and new kinds of problems, the issues that you face change as they realize your graduation throughout life. Many times we think we are alone in facing these problems until we realize we can involve others to help us through. And yes we are the only one until we realize how many other people are going through or have gone through those same experiences.

We don't realize and can't seem to see how much easier our struggle(s) could be, if only we decided to seek the counsel of those who have already been through those tests, trials, tribulations, pains, etc. name them 
my ragazze, my ragazzi!

As you face your challenges daily, do me one favor and count your blessings one by one .. seeing, eating without aid, breathing, walking by yourself, the ability to run, to talk, to hear. You don't take these things into account because you are putting those who can't down, but to show that you are appreciative of those things which you possess and most often take for granted !

Love You All ..


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