Tuesday, September 15, 2015

" Devil Take A Seat , Let Me Lecture You"

We feel pressurized by so many things in this life whether it's family, friends or ourselves. In January I.was.hard.on.myself because I wanted to ace my classes, I wanted to give my best; though I was so hard on myself mentally my body actually read that. These few months have been quite a journey and I have to thank God for getting me through and over my current and past situations. I took a journey I didn't think was possible, I had to finally tell myself "No matter what this takes I gotta do it and I did it !"

I have been on a journey which will still be instrumental to my life 
Even in years to come 
I've come to the end of it and need to find out how to achieve what I desire most right now.
Times will take you from ill health and back to homeostatic control
Largest allergy fight of your life left you with that adaptive immunity 
You'll never have the chance to attack me like that again
Does it help that people doubt me getting there 
Who told you I needed their two cents to fuel me into sadness
And at which point did I inform you of my concern with distractions

Many things will take you from a high to 'where did I lose full control' 
I just had this all scheduled out, post-it noted, I even timed them
What happened and at which point did I seem disorganized
Where did the urgency to achieve leave and take sidelines
In which way can I bring myself back because 
Those who love me will soon doubt that I tried at all 
I'll hurt myself thinking about this point for the rest of my life 
God you know my heart please help me out 
You made me, you placed me here 
It's your favor and grace that got me this place 
I admit my submission to the commissions of admissions 
From tasks that take me one step further 
I don't give my best as I wish but it's still good enough 
How can I thank you enough

I was frustrated, I didn't have a way out 
But you held my hand, you protected my heart 
When I nearly broke it, you saved me 
I lost self so you saved me from myself 
Will I ever get to the next stop
I don't want those behind to leave me behind
I .. I .. I ENCOURAGED them to run 
Situations can't stay this way
This devil needs to take a seat and hear me out 
He needs to know I'm not his puppet to some freak show
You don't mess with me then think I won't get up 

My future is not determined by the outline 
Of my current situation 
My drive was tears but I wiped my eyes and 
Passion seeped out, my pressed package burns
Good oil 
Give me time I will grow, five years does and doesn't seem too long 
You'll be hearing from my judge by the time I'm done
I'll school you in the tests of life
Let me lecture you on the ability to live within means
But provide beyond capacity
No temporary principles taught here 
Long term lessons given in fortitude 
To show how graciously it was understood that we 
Should never and will never stop here 

And by the way the judgement is already ruled in my favor, It's a win-win for me ! 

- Pebble$

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Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Cloudy .

Do actions become apparent .. before or after the deed is done ? - Pebble$

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Tuesday, August 11, 2015

Ms Allen .. I Got You x

This post goes out to my high school mom, she advised and encouraged me on how to be a woman when all I knew best to do was 
be a girl. She has been a great mentor in my life, supported me, encouraged me and she has brought so much laughter.

She is not feeling too good and I want you to keep her in your prayers. This woman is so dear to my heart she has taken me like 
a daughter under her beautiful wings of experience and maturity. I feel even more driven at times when I remember 
people such as her and it drives me to keep on keeping on. 

Lord keep this woman who is so dear to me
Give her strength and guide her through 
Bring her joy, bring her healing 
When she doesn't feel like it, let her know she is capable 
Keep her close to your heart and never let her out of your sight 
Make her burdens light and her journey strong
Allow her to leave a legacy 
Now is not the time for her yet but 
Give her the chance to give what she has left
And come back to you empty

*empty = when you have fulfilled your purpose and you are not going to your grave with unfulfilled dreams.

For all of you who see this, please reach out to a friend, mother, father, cousin, colleagues etc. etc. who you have not been in touch 
with recently. You don't know how much it may mean to that person, even if your last conversation ended with an argument 
or a "I will never speak to you again as long as I live".

Do it! If someone has been on your mind there is a reason for that, even if you call and they seem fine .. It wasn't a waste of time !! 

I love y'all and I love you Ms Allen, you mean so much to me.

Pebble$ x x 

Tuesday, July 28, 2015


Motivate yourselves .. Be motivated !

- Pebble$ x 

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Tuesday, July 14, 2015

The Changes ..

Life is an interesting ride, a journey, a set of stairs taken to your final destination BUT no where in the contract of life did it say things would be easy or the ride smooth, rather it stated that we find ourselves, learn, enrich our existence and in finding ourselves discover each other. If you need to find yourself that means you must be ready to educate yourself on value, principles, positivity and building. If you do not grasp the fundamentals of building yourself you will never be able to help another to build and consequently will be left hindered in your ability to help in building the world around you. 

I find fulfilment in knowing that I have someone to talk to, people to talk to and laugh with. There is no space for a void when you occupy your time and worth with building, within building sometimes your hands won't be at work it will be your mind learning and being educated! Progression will follow when you find that you are constantly seeking to improve the vessel known as YOU, mastering that means you'll have no trouble with sharing what you have gained with others. You go through your own things in life to be a mentor to those who will go through something similar in life. 

Taking in the experience of the journey is so important, even more than getting to the finish line. When you focus on the image of the complete you (the you, you want to see, the man/woman you wish you were, the place you wish you were at in life, wishing you had achieved that dream or goal by now etc. etc.) you forget to enjoy the trips, the stumbles, the boos boos, the tears, the laughter, the rises and the falls. Missing out these "minor" events are very dangerous in your walk as a human, as an individual in this thing we call the 'human race'. Blotting your mind out to the failures/negatives leaves huge gaps in your history which means that for those periods of time you have nothing to prove your existence so you were just in gaseous exchange & excretion mode and not existing. 

I won't come at you with all this without admitting that I take time to reflect sometimes and realize I've spent too much of my life blotting out 'minor details' and horrible experiences. My saving grace at intervals is being reminded that I was a pretty cool kid despite my unhappiness. Yes, I have been bullied for most of my life and hated on, I still get hated on but we as individuals can't be stuck at that bus stop you have to keep it moving define your destination and let it be anywhere that does not enable you to somehow come back here. Move on! 

As life progresses, you may bring yourself to the confidence of moving on and you'll make a lifestyle out of building and contributing to the growth of YOU; and you will count all experiences good or bad in your journey to those goals and dreams. Good! Now you have found yourself but why are you experiencing the same problems, or so you think but you are not. Over the course of this life you experience new levels and new kinds of problems, the issues that you face change as they realize your graduation throughout life. Many times we think we are alone in facing these problems until we realize we can involve others to help us through. And yes we are the only one until we realize how many other people are going through or have gone through those same experiences.

We don't realize and can't seem to see how much easier our struggle(s) could be, if only we decided to seek the counsel of those who have already been through those tests, trials, tribulations, pains, etc. name them 
my ragazze, my ragazzi!

As you face your challenges daily, do me one favor and count your blessings one by one .. seeing, eating without aid, breathing, walking by yourself, the ability to run, to talk, to hear. You don't take these things into account because you are putting those who can't down, but to show that you are appreciative of those things which you possess and most often take for granted !

Love You All ..


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Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Doing What You Doing ..

Hey World.

It's been a minute since I have engaged with you and given you any updates. I can't believe it has been three years (passed that milestone on June 8th, 2015) that I've been blogging. It has been real nice doing it, it's been a journey of its own. I'm really grateful to my family, my friends, people who just got to know me through the camera or through my blog first because some people followed me on Google+ before I realized every post I was making, I was sharing with only myself. I don't know how that setting got there but a year later is when I made this discovery, maybe that's the reason why many people could not find me in the first year. 

If you follow me on Google+ you will notice that most of my posts have been music, only because I'm slowly easing back into it - with all my social media. Music is one thing that I love so I thought, what a better time to share it while I'm deciding on what I want to present and record.

But hey! This post is not about me making excuses so let me get back to my main focus, however have you had the chance to check out my Open Mic.

If you have been wondering I have been good, I have been well. Back in January me and my immune system had a little argument which cause a cold sore (my second cold sore stressing-myself-related) and this occurred because I was thinking and overthinking .. working, being hard on myself. So my immune system decided to conversate and tell me I was being hard on myself and that's why I got that cold sore. Stressing myself, not time stress but putting myself under stress because I wasn't where I wanted to be. So, I want to take this chance to encourage everybody that no matter what stage of your dream, or on the road to your dream that you are at .. You will get there eventually, You can get there and You will get there! How hard are you willing to work for it though ?!

There are few things I have read these past few months which I will share with you.

First one, "Yes society brings oppression and sometimes that society is you who oppresses yourself." 
This little bit of knowledge literally means that yes society is responsible for oppression because they are the ones 
to build then destroy the ideal .. see it favors them one time and they be like 'ouu this look good for now' then they change their minds later and decide today we ain't feeling that ! 

So the rest of y'all who killed yourselves because you didn't meet the previous standard might have lived through the new standard or the new ideal that society may have going on. This leads into "A double-minded man is unstable, for his mind is everywhere ..". If you don't know who the freak you is, anybody and everybody will tell you who they think you are, so you need to know about yourself. You need to realize that no matter what anybody else tells you, no matter what you have told yourself about yourself in the past you are an amazing human being, you are an purposeful individual .. I'm not going to say unique (Pebble$ gon get ya !!).

It depends on how you perceive unique, if your unique is being this way today, being this person today and that person tomorrow dependent on what changes in society they you have not yet found your Uniché, yeah I'll make that a word. Who is supposed to be in Uniché .. YOU are supposed to be in Uniché. A niche is a place of comfort, a place where you excel it is where it doesn't matter what anybody says to you, you know you are the best and you tell them this is my Uniché !

You need to find your niche, your niche is your unique place .. your unique selling point like they say in business. What is so amazing about you that I want to invest time and space allowing you to speak your positivity into the room that I'm in, to speak your positivity into my mind. To allow the sound waves from your words and your mouth to get into my ears .. Are you really worth my time? If the answer is Yes I will continue listening if not there is an X button in the corner of the screen you can click that ish out !

So that is how we get to the point of Uniché, you have to be comfortable in the way you are and in this case you should be a single-minded man or woman. A man of one mind, one body, one spirit and soul. Everything should be in harmony everything should be in syncytium just like the heart, they are supposed to work as one. You are supposed to have a level of awareness and consciousness that allows you to be the best that you can be, to 
operate at the best level of YOU as the best version of you in, day out !

When you find Uniché it's going to be very hard for anything or anyone to depress you because you know that who determines your happiness is you. So if you decide that today 'I'm not feeling so good but I will try', let it be because of YOU not because of somebody else telling you stuff or doing stuff.

Next one, "Anyone who does what they love will always look good doing what they are doing while 
doing what they are doing." I spoke to a homeboy of mine a few weeks back, I might have told him this or I wished I had remembered at that point in time to tell him that he needs to find what he loves doing then he will do what he loves. Only because it's hard enough not knowing how exactly you'll go about finding what you love doing, what you were created in this life to do then you have the pressure of parents on top of it. Sometimes or actually a few times you think, how are my parents gonna perceive me? what will they say? I got an older sibling who is doing this so how am I going to go about it? You just have to try and find a way to make sure you try to do something right while you're trying to tell them "Yo mom and pops, I really want to go this way but you know I tried my hand at this and I gave it my best and it's not working out or it worked out but this ain't where I find fulfillment". With that any wise parent would sit down sit back and think, where would my child best excel let me take in their suggestions or he's told me best on how I could help him out/ help her out.

You got to be real cerebral to get this one "Faithless men come as the opposition to your success, they do nothing less than destroy faith and fix fate." let me explain that to you. You want to succeed in life, right? I don't know any person who doesn't want to succeed and, the faithless man - is the 'friends' around you who say 
"Girl you can never do that", "Hey man, you really think you can do that .. do you know where you coming from" 
or "What's your basis though, you don't have no foundation where you going?". So you then have to tell yourself, 
there are people who have hit rock bottom, people who started with zero that own a lot; I am not them BUT they 
are examples of what hard work does, and what determination does when you want to succeed. If you want to succeed .. you will ! I have a lot of people who tell me " Yo Pebble$ it's easy to say that man, but in reality is it 
really like that? and I have to be honest, I don't know where your coming from because... I always tell you guys don't say you understand what somebody is going through unless you have been through it.

For example, 1- somebody comes to me to say I've lost a sibling who was supposed to be born but I never got to meet them, I can relate and I can understand because 'In The Moment Of Now' is dedicated to my little sister who I never got to meet.) 

2- If somebody told me about a miscarriage or something else my approach would be "No I cannot identify with you BUT I can comfort you because I haven't been through that".

3- Somebody says they have hit rock bottom before, I cannot truly say I have hit rock bottom, rock rock bottom. I have hit rock bottom to a level but everybody's rock bottom is different, some folks rock bottoms are softer than others. When you realize how they hit rock bottom and what your rock bottom looks like you will be like "Yup you stronger than me, we both hit rock bottom and much respect to our individual rock bottoms but it impacted us in different ways."

" You will not realize how hitting a rock bottom feels for some folks but you will come to understand that it impacts us in different ways, in different aspects of our lives, the ways that we think afterwards, the way that we relate and things like      that ! "

I hope you all enjoyed that, thank you for your support ! 
       - Pebble$ x

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Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Motivation #1

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