Tuesday, January 10, 2017

God Ain't Playin Wit Chu

Happy New Year as I welcome you into a new kind of year, with a new attitude and new start. Hellur Week #2 of 2017 I made it, we made it ! Yes I did almost crack with a foot on Doubting Thomas Ave. for a second but I called that foot back and remembered this post. I am so very sure that you are wondering what this title is about, we shall proceed on that very subject but is you ready? 

"This is about to gas your tank all the way up for the ride of your life through 2017 and life will never be the same again." 

I already started giving fuel to my Instagram friends by letting them know that 2017 is the year to be unapologetically YOU. Stand in what you believe in and what you believe in will never cease to give you the energy and strength to keep on going. This is the year to place your trust in God both in the times when you know what to expect and the times when you have to take a seat and allow results that are greater than you can imagine, happen. Trusting in God will mean that you have to be fully persuaded in the scope of His ability, of His capabilities; this includes the knowledge and continual grasping that you indeed have a purpose to life, a purpose to achieve and a reason to every season that you go through. If you haven't searched for your purpose, run wild through the fields of life in search for it and let nobody hinder you. Grow closer to your creator and allow him to guide your steps, do not be afraid to ask questions or make the wrong turns on your journey. When you leave something in his hands to take care of, do not sweat it, do not doubt if factors like time bring your faith into question but rather remember who is in control of your situation for He never fails.

You must be fully persuaded that whatever you want to achieve this year is possible and will happen. You cannot allow time or finances to work against you, you can't allow those things to limit you. Whatever needs to happen will happen and it will happen right on time just keep doing what you have to do. Put in the work, give it time, be committed, be committed to seeing it happen and not letting go of your dream(s) or your vision(s) until you see the reality of it. Keep on keepin on in your confessions, in your prayer, in your drive, in your faith, in your walk, put a little bounce and attitude in your step and keep you head held up high. If the enemy is going to come at you let him know that as long as your faith and belief in God is concerned he'll have to go through God first. When you get to this level and you keep pressing on in believing that something has got to happen, something needs to shift to make way for the reality of your dreams it will take a whole lot for anything to make you turn back and forget all that your determination has been building. 

Get to know your creator, spend mornings with Him in meditation, in conversation and even in silence because that will create an opportunity for him to renew all your vitals - physically, emotionally & mentally. All of you has to be ready to be unapologetically you, to be confident in your stride, in your decisions and through the mental communicating to your emotional to re-energize your physical.. to keep you going ! You are fighting to make yours happen, you cannot let somebody else take your spot because you doubted at the last minute or forgot the persuasion needed for others to believe in you too.  

As many like to refer to him as the Universe let's make this a little more relatable. If you believe that the Universe has those thing in the works for you, then it's yours. You can't receive all of that support and reassurance then continue seeing a defeated image, it just can't happen. Let the reassurance that the Universe has your back be your reason to keep your eyes on your goals so much that you see beyond the obstacles that you encounter, so much that you never see any challenge as being bigger than the Universe in all its entirety.   

Taking you through all of that, is also a personal message for me too. I have feared for so long that all it brought me was nothing, all it did was make me uncomfortable and limited. In 2017, being unapologetically me means to believe that whatever I want in life is mine for the taking and anything that I set my mind to do must be achieved.. no turning back ! It means learning a process of appreciating what I have understanding that I can work with it and achieve those goals, understanding that my every need is met. Not allowing what is not available to me, to stop me from seeing beyond the circumstance. For me if I doubt for a second it could cost me bigger opportunities and the chance to fight bigger battles. 

Doubt and fear are Besties who are ready to steal your every opportunity. They will do that in 2017 by making you look back and base your progression on your before and not the possibility of your after. Ain't no time or room for that, so instead you should keep it moving and reflect on whatever lessons you have learnt through life and manifest them NOW, in your present. Start using those lessons to practice the reality of the man you want to become, to practice the greatness of the woman that has been placed within for you to flourish into. 

With all of that said, you can't afford to question whether God is ready to bless you or not, the blessing is already yours what you talking about. Ch'mon ! Just as He takes your faith in Him seriously, just as he sees the passion burning inside of you and hope being your constant drive, you should also take yourself and your goals seriously. Take your walk with Him seriously because a destiny and purpose are not things to joke with, they are not mere matters to be weighed in contemplation but to desire in completion of a journey. The resources to make things happen are attached to those goals, make sure to run with the full belief that yours will be discovered as you keep on keepin on. Do not waste your resources by doubting, do not lose them through fear, do not run from them because you can't believe that the reality is yours but run with them and utilize them.

When you focus on what's behind you, you forget the wider, clearer and more serene view in front of you. There's a reason why the field of view in front of you is wider than that which is behind. If you focus on the rear view you are NOT ready to move forward and you will surely be left behind while others overtake you in the fast lane of life. The overtakers are those 

who want to pick up some speed and run further with their dreams and visions in life. Which one are you?

If you've been looking to start a relationship with him and you don't know how, this is the time to ask. As the saying goes ASK for him - A-sk and you shall be answered, S-eek and you will find Him & K-nock and the door shall be opened. You start a journey with him by wanting those three things, 1. to be answered 2. to find Him & 3. to have the door of your heart opened for Him to reveal Himself to you.

-  God Ain't Playin Wit Chu In 2017, 
He Ain't Down For You Settling For Less Than Your Worth !  - 

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Tuesday, December 27, 2016

2016 Reads : Pebble$

Books That I Read

1. The Empress : Paul-Loup Sultizer

2. Working With Emotional Intelligence : Daniel Goleman

3. A Bad Case of Stripes : David Shannon

4. God's Generals: The Roaring Reformers : Roberts Liardon

The Empress 
Hannah Newman is 'The Empress' she is a wealthy woman, she has fought for all she has despite people thinking the contrary because she is attractive. She is head-strong in her decisions and how she manages her life, business and personal matters. She is empowering but at some intervals she made me feel like I shouldn't be reading this book, it was a little too intimate but I learnt some things in light of holding your own and not making her mistakes in my life. 

Working With Emotional Intelligence
Whether you are the janitor or the PA, the mail-room girl or team manager, the board of executives or the CEO; you have to be accountable and you have to work without a chip on your shoulder. I also wrote two blog posts about this book, click the links below:
Emotionally Intelligent? Pt.1
Emotionally Intelligent? Pt.2

A Bad Case Of Stripes
This was one of my very first reads of 2016 and I even wrote a blog post about it. Each of us are Camilla Cream, no matter what we feel that we do or do not struggle to face in life. My favorite part in this book is being able to recognize that most times the solution to the chaos we face in our lives can be found within ourselves we just need to stand back and take the time to search for those answers and quiet places within. You can read that post by clicking on the link below:
Chew On A Lima Bean Some Time ?!

God's Generals: The Roaring Reformers
This book was given to me a few years ago, due to its thickness I kept placing it closer to the bottom of my To-Reads pile of books until earlier this summer I really wanted to read it to challenge myself. Little did I know that this book would really challenge my faith and educate me on how far man's relationship with God has been tested, questioned, mocked, twisted, silenced, killed and in some instances caused him to be rejected by the whole of society including those who should have been on their team. If you want to understand how privileged you are as a child of God to be able to exercise your right to worship and gather in His name you need to read this book. This book is the best history lesson you can get as a child of God, a book to kick you in your butt! If this does not challenge and comfort you to be uncompromising in your walk with God in these last days of 2016 and beyond then I don't know what will. You will be persecuted child, oh you sure will be persecuted BUT God has your back in all ways.. Always!

2016 has been amazing year, I'm sure you can tell how much I enjoyed it in my "Dear Pebble$ : 001" letter. I have enjoyed this journey so far 2016 was supposed to be filled with bountiful blessings and opportunities to take as my own and that is exactly what manifested. I Carpe Diem-ed all over this year despite little personal improvements I had to make it all worked out. This is my last blog post of 2016, oh my my my. I look forward to engaging with you all in conversation in 2017, remain blessed and make sure you squeeze every last drop of goodness out of 2016. 

I also want to take this opportunity to thank all of my readers over these past four years, it has been a pleasure to have your time and to write these posts. What have you enjoyed the most about my blog, what do you look forward to & include any improvements? 

Stay Blessed Everybody !
Pebble$ x 

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Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Dear Pebble$ : 001

December 13, 2016 

Dear Pebble$,

I have had so many ideas lately. I want to achieve so much and even though my present doesn't reflect where I would like to be right now, I know those days are on their way and they will surely manifest themselves. Appreciate you enriching my mind to keep me going, keeping me informed and constantly challenging me to learn. Also in places where I don't know how to approach something you always got me looking for ways to learn about it. 

2016 took me on a journey of emotions, I learnt about me and how free I wanted to be, this was made possible by starting my first journal. I grew closer to God, so you can only imagine how much my life improved. I desire for greater things ahead and I have added more goals to my list of things to accomplish in life the list of "You Actually Think You Can Achieve These, Go On With Your Wild Self". I realize that I can no longer allow life dictate how I feel, how I react and how I get back up from being knocked down. Your resilience is the secret to becoming the great woman you wish to be, you are an achiever beyond the current view that is in sight and other people should feel that way around you. 2017 is going to open the floodgates of blessings so you better believe God has got some goods for you in that flow, you have to act like His child - know your rights, your entitlements, the impossibilities He can make possible. Encourage your friends to believe the same, share the blessings with them, oh and you see that book you're writing the enemy doesn't want you to publish that book so take that however you will. Don't give up! 

You said you would travel, and you did. You finally filmed your Love Apparatus responses despite the breeze amplifying its harmonies. You've progressed with book planning and the reading that's necessary and now we need to sort out what's left. Your aim in life is to go to your grave empty right?! And I'm proud of you for taking steps to continually share what you have to give and using your voice where you can.

Your accomplishments this year include being an active part of the communities that have welcomed you in, despite only joining both this year, Twitter and Instagram. You read & finished 'God's Generals' gifted to you because somebody thought you were a revolutionary in your own way. Planning and selection for your book. Growth as a writer. I look forward to seeing more growth in 2017, learning more and sharing my journey with you.

I went to a new height with God, I took the planning for my book further, I found new ways to improve myself and expand my mind continuously. I took actions to show that I really want what I said I wanted and even got back from being knocked down like a domino several times. I am sooo happy for all of these things because I said in my 2015 In Review that these were the things I wanted to accomplish in 2016. When you believe and confess, look at what happens. 

I really needed my parents this year and they were there for me, a lot of decisions they encouraged me to take this year led me to meeting amazing people. I'm grateful that I was given that privilege to live in the moment of those events and reflection just made it sweeter. I am most thankful for the moments and the continual growth I have experienced in my walk with God through life. I am thankful for life in my lungs and the continual flow of creativity that I have had but I need to be quicker in noting them down, as I forgot a few by the time I tried noting it on paper - HELLO! Notes App I will remember you exist in 2017.

Much Love, 

The Chica You Best Believe That!


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Thursday, December 1, 2016

LIVE Stream - Check-In #3

Join me December 29, 2016 @ 18:00 GMT. We will talk, we will vibe, we will review, share updates & send well wishes wishes forth for 2017 ! Just press play below to join the stream.

It's the year in perspective, it's good conversation and updates on my process with my book thus far!

This is the third instalment of my Check-In's for 2016. I have a lot to be grateful for and I'm sure you will be encouraged once you hear me out. Hopefully my fellow writers and poets can see me taking this journey for the team, with posts to look forward to in 2017. 

I did my first review last year and decided to continue, check it out here.

You can join the hangout at the platforms below 

Remember to use the hashtag #pebbleswroteit on any of those platforms so that I know your comments and questions are directed at me. Thank you !

If you have any questions about the stream, leave a comment down below or on any of the following.


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I want to publish a book, it will be a collective  of my work from the start of my journey at 8 years old til Summer 2015. Hold me to it ! 

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Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Pebble$ [Blogger] Love Apparatus

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                The original concept for this interview should be credited to Jesse Boykins III . The interviews he had with various ladies   intrigued me, so I decided to try putting myself in the position to ask myself the questions he asked, I hope you enjoy reading my responses.   If you feel like laughing you can watch the responses on my YouTube Channel.

Feel free to leave comments below, about points where you think you might have answered differently.

1: What Do You Love About Being A Woman?

I love the natural disruption you cause when you walk into a place, even if it’s for the slightest moment or a sustained stare. It positions you on top of a hierarchy almost instantly in the way that a man might not have, if 
he were to enter that environment instead of you. 

There is an element of being strong yet vulnerable at the same time in being a woman, I would not yet classify myself as a woman but rather as a lady in the sense that a lady still finds herself through understanding and coming to terms with the limits of her strength and the extent of her vulnerability. You grow closer to being secure about your insecurity through vulnerability in a way that makes a man understand you are no toy and equally as human if not more. 

The woman is distinguished from a girl by a simple line of RESPECT. Respect enough to know when and when not to in anything, enough to not play with emotions. A woman has a respect for self enough to step away from situations & decisions with unnecessary escalations. 

2: Long-Term Lust or Short-Term Love? Why?

Short-Term Love. Lust is momentary it works in intervals, it is what it is because you want it time and time again, it only comes in one capsule per pack if you want to gain satisfaction you’ll have to become an addict, a slave to it. Love on the other hand when genuine sustains you till the end of time, no refills needed and it doesn’t enslave it carries you along. Love gives as it is received whilst Lust works on a one way system it only takes from you consuming energy that could have easily been spent on working with Love.

Lust has never gotten man anywhere but in the position of wanting, while Love has made man ready to give as well as receive. Why would I want to be placed behind a smoke screen my whole life lusting after a man if the only thing I’ll be thinking about is the things I could do to him, Lust won’t get my bills paid, food on my table or guarantee my future. 

3: Do You Remember The First Time You Felt The Emotion Lust?

Yeah, when I was in high school. When I think about it now I think it was disguised as a crush/obsession I had for Omarion when 
he was part of B2K and when he starred in ‘You Got Served’.

4: Beauty or Danger? Explain.

Beauty. Beauty can be found in everything if only you open your mind, heart, ears and perspective on life and your world. Beauty never lies at the surface because if it did most of the scars of life would have bruised and erased that beauty away. Beauty has the ability to handle danger it turns the ugly of fear within danger, and stands firm when danger asks it to run. The beauty of danger is one which is around for a limited period of time till those who once feared it overcome the fear of facing it.  

5: Chaos or Structure? Why?

Structure. Chaos is not my friend, me and chaos don’t understand each other and don’t want to understand each other. I’d like to refer to the moments of chaos within my structure as “flexibility”. Flexibility is the time used to relax and break the norm, break the cycle of usual activity. It is the time used to bring me back to balance. Structure gives control in a way that chaos cannot, although 
in the moment of chaos it is the one in control while structure is helpless BUT structure brings us out of chaos no matter how gradual or slow that process is.  Structure has given me the confidence to plan, to dream, to achieve, to write and to say some of 
my best compositions as a lady, writer, poet, sister, friend and daughter.

6: Balance or Climax? Why?

I can’t choose. Only because you know you like the climax of a good day or great week, you like the feeling of achievements of things gone right. But you can’t deny the good of balance which prepares you for weighing the sides of your highs and lows; it 
allows you to be your true self. With that said I feel climax comes within the beauty of balance which permits you to enjoy the high 
of that moment in time, but teaches you to not stay in that moment because you can still do better, it grounds and earths where climax may disillusion. 

7: Do You Have A Paper Perfect? (*things you look for in a man)

Is there any lady that doesn’t? Well he better be rich, drive a Bentley Continental GT, own a big house and spend every second 
of his time with me. I’m done!! Did you think I was serious LOL!! Your homegirl Pebble$ ain’t like that, the real on what I need in my paper perfect is ..

I need a man that knows how to laugh and joke with me, he needs to feel fulfilled in what he does I don’t care what it is; he should do what he loves and love what he does (if he’s not happy with his situation, there’s a likelihood I might feel it too when he comes home in his behavior and attitudes & ain’t nobody got time for that). He should love me as he loves himself, motivated, purpose-driven, far-sighted (someone who looks to the future in things to achieve, taking himself from now to then, I couldn’t think of the word I was looking for). He has to have goals, dreams, visions, aspirations, know his destination (there is no way I’m following a 
man whose train has no destination).

I need a man who will not be intimidated by my accomplishments as a woman, a man who will support my dreams as I act as his backbone through accomplishing his. A man who will pray with me, respect me, care for me, love me for me, appreciate my 
fabulous and my #laybackchillathomeinaonepiece, as I do all the same for him.  You get all of that?!

8: When You Hear “Love Apparatus” What First Comes To Mind?

Instruments or some kind of tool in making love happen. I think of the use of the deeper things of human nature to bring forth 
the beauty of love, the things that must be leveled if two people want love to work. The tools needed in love – patience, understanding, common ground, mutual agreement, identifying and grasping perfect imperfections, finding another whole to 
make a greater masterpiece. It is the tool used in the expression of one’s self to the world, to those they love and to those yet 
to find love.

It’s like wood and sandpaper, the wood has already been cut to shape but the sandpaper needs to be used to perfect & smooth those sharper edges or carvings to bring the wood to the standard it should be at. The wood is the love (or the people) and the sandpaper is the apparatus (the things or people that bring the missing element) needed to bring that love through and allow it 
to grow.

9: Do You Like Smiling? Why?

Pass me a nice book or notepad and a pen, let me be in my zone and I'll give you the best smile I have. I feel like you have to free yourself from your thoughts to genuinely smile, even if it's just for a moment. To like smiling does that mean you liked frowning previously, I'm just saying but hey seriously though, laughter is more evident in my life than smiling. 

Every time I smile I'm accused of my smile flirting so I laugh instead. I like laughing, it is free meds for the stresses you store up inside both knowingly and unknowingly. Laughter is my therapy, I can't cry and break into a smile instead I cry and laugh it out or laugh at myself.


Hope You Enjoyed Reading My Reponses. Leave A Comment Below & Start A Conversation.

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Tuesday, November 15, 2016

The Former & Latter

      I have married off a child
      Even when I knew that it wasn't right
      I let go of my only daughter
      And let havoc wreak amongst the remainder
      Foolish was I to let go of this child
      Who now felt that the safest place she could be
      Was her mother's womb
      Have I reduced my wife to just a womb
      Now my daughter wants to run away
      I married off my daughter
      That she might be happy
      I mortgaged her happiness
      The former meaning to cause death and
      The latter meaning I imprisoned her
      I mortgaged her life
      The former meaning to hold her in one place
      The latter meaning I have sentenced her..
      To a term she cannot bail on
      I have taken away my daughter's freedom to
      Express, to love, to smile, to be
      The former meaning to alienate her
      The latter meaning to silence her
      I have found no peace when I caused her life disarray
      She must have prayed good
      That all her enemies receive the same turmoil, that her heart weeps
      For she did not sow the seed so why should she reap the punishment alone
      I have left my daughter alone even though
      Her status is engaged
      The former meaning to kill and
      The latter achieving that goal
      I have mortgaged my only daughter

I want to publish a book, it will be a collective  of my work from the start of my journey at 8 years old til Summer 2015. Hold me to it ! 

Copyright © 2016 PebblesWroteIt

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

I Understand Gramy..

This is a product of connecting my upbringing, the prayers of my grandmother & the events that happened in the days following independence day weekend July 5 - July 9. 

Importance of this piece..
Our grandmothers often represent a generation who really know the ups and downs of life, like REALLY know the ups and downs. They are women who have seen some of the most touching and devastating events which have shaped history and OUR history. For me the presence of a grandmother represents strength, love, nuturing and wisdom; she is the reason behind many family traditions, recipes and an example of success. She loves God and she breaks down the bigger complexities of life for your young mind to understand and value, many times her hustle makes your future possible. This piece centers around the role of grandmothers and the worth of their words, in this case the words within a grandmother's prayers over the years are fully understood for the first time. The basis on which these words are understood lie within heartbreaking events in our world where black men and women are losing their lives in an unjust manner. When looking deeper I realize that this wasn't only a prayer that I benefited from but many others have testified that their grandmothers prayed similar prayers which have kept them til today constantly striving to be the best men and women they can be in today's society and beyond. A grandmother's prayers AND her words must never be taken lightly, they hold a power that we cannot fully comprehend in our lifetimes.

Family is defined by its members, how they relate and what they mean to each other. It consists of several kinds of relationships, the highlight of this piece revolves around grandmothers and the various relationships that stem from their being.. their presence in a family. Grandmothers often hold family together when situations or circumstances can tear it apart. 

Holding onto the possibility that grandmothers keep family together, they pray and intercede for everybody. It may be the meekness of a grandmother's heart that causes constant protection from above, where He hears the plea of grandmothers and honors the call. We've got to do things for ourselves and stop placing our walk with God in the hands of our grandmothers, learn from your grandmother. Hunger for the lessons and wisdom that your grandmother has and greater. One day generations will also require you to do what your grandmothers have done for you. Are you equipped enough? Have you hungered for the presence of the Lord as much?
Does God know the sound of your voice or the constant moans of needy prayers when you remember 'Oh there's somebody by the name of Jesus', "Please please rescue me Lord". You have to desire a walk with God that shakes the kingdom of the enemy, let him pee himself every single morning when you get out of bed; make the enemy run every time you enter into a place he thought he had control over. 

We need to hunger for this level of relating with God and the ability to hold people together when they are almost shattering, but if we can't be bothered to learn.. how can we fight and who are we fighting for? When you equip yourself you are able to help others, when you build the strength that you need you can fight for others. From today forth know that you are fighting for your own cause, a cause which directly impacts those that surround you, those living in your generation and those of generations unborn. You are fighting to sustain life where situations only present death, you are presenting a voice people didn't know could arise and represent them. You are also fighting for those who don't even see the need to fight, who don't get the purpose of the fight and those who will break down the structures that are in place to protect them, with their own hands. The fight might feel like it is fought in vain but your impact will transcend time periods after you have gone and left your legacy, your actions replace the regret of 'I wish I had done..' with 'I did it and I was alive to..'. Your fight brings light to the wrongdoing, the injustice, the silencing and the desensitizing of people's reactions to such disgusting acts that shouldn't even be found in the nature of mankind.

We are forgetting that our interactions daily despite what our journeys have led us to experience should be on an individual to individual basis. You are responsible for how you decide to treat those whose paths cross at a point with yours, you have a duty as a human being to hold your innermost convictions in one hand and have your "benefit of the doubt" fairy dust in the other hand ready to sprinkle into action before anything else. We are forgetting that we are all human beings birthed of our mothers who once held us with the utmost disbelief that their baby was alive and well, that they made it to the other side of child birth to carry their child in their hands. We also forget the families broken by loss, we forget that your blood and my blood are the same color even if our shells are not, we forget that before any authority or title you are first a human being and those things are mere additions to your status as fellow homosapien. We are losing out on collaborating with each other in our communities, in our jobs, our colleges, in the corporate world and in life over matters that we have no control over. This focus on irrelevant details is distracting us from the main aims and missions that we are supposed to reach and complete in life. You lose out on educating your world on the coming advancements and what you have to offer your world. You instead repeat history by having to deliver old classes to a new generation when those classes should be part of stories told to show how far we have come. Not how many centuries we have leaped back to. Wake up. Yes people will do wrong things but don't classify the whole people under that regressive label; try and understand the damage it causes.

Ways to move forward and ways to cope with such events in life ?

1. If you still have your grandmother around, talk with her. Question her and if you're too sure how to ask just say "Gramy, Pebble$ sent me." 😊

2. Look for ways to educate yourself daily, biweekly whatever time to can give, give it. Keep up with developments BUT know when to step away because the events of 2016 had us all feeling like we needed counselling.

3. Advocate for your peace when it all feels like a little too heavy to carry, and you'll be able to support others as they support you.

4. Always have somebody you can talk to or people you can talk to.

5. Pray. Prayer is not the whole solution but IT IS part of it, meditate. Meditate to shut out the noise of the world and communicate 

with God in your secret place.

6. If you have known the effects of spewed hate, you better be the last person sending it out towards others. 

7. It's alright not to have all the answers, but your hunger for some answers is sometimes all it takes. 

Know that your life is worth every breath you take and the inhale/exhale of your lung gives rhythm to hearts that needed breath when they said breath had died and gone. May you be the new start that arises with our coming lunar :)

I want to publish a book, it will be a collective  of my work from the start of my journey at 8 years old til Summer 2015. Hold me to it ! 

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